Today I'm Grateful for:-
Today I'm grateful for rest and painkillers.
I know I have used this before, but today I really am glad of the opportunity to just rest and take painkillers when I need them. I'm so glad that I haven't had to go anywhere, or do anything other than get Hubby's stuff ready for him to go to night shift.
It seems that the stress has started to catch up with me and the FMS has kicked in with a vengeance. Also the CFS is making it difficult to even stay awake long enough to tidy up a little or do anything useful at all. It's days like this that make it difficult to find something really positive, and I do admit to having a lot of those days lately. Lots. I don't feel particularly positive and I know that I just have to work my way through and keep in mind that there will be light at the end of the tunnel soon. As my other used to say..."this too will pass".
I'm off to take more painkillers and have a lie down for a little while.
Kisses
Julie
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Day Forty Seven - Planning and keeping busy (All Caught Up now)
Today I'm Grateful for:-
Today I'm grateful for planning the decorating of our home and keeping busy.
To keep myself busy, I have been planning a makeover for our home (along with Lizzie's creative input). It is basically just de-cluttering and keeping key pieces of furniture and knick-knacks, rather than trying to cram absolutely everything into our quite small place. I have started removing some of the stuff and putting it away, it either use later or to get rid of. Need some strong muscle to help move the bookcase though. Wonder if S-I-L would like to come and help.???
I am still trying to keep busy, not think about Uncle at all if I can help it. I still think there might be something wrong with me. Although my very bright eldest daughter says not. I think maybe this time she could be wrong...
Back to planning... keep busy Julie, just keep busy...
Kisses
Julie
Today I'm grateful for planning the decorating of our home and keeping busy.
To keep myself busy, I have been planning a makeover for our home (along with Lizzie's creative input). It is basically just de-cluttering and keeping key pieces of furniture and knick-knacks, rather than trying to cram absolutely everything into our quite small place. I have started removing some of the stuff and putting it away, it either use later or to get rid of. Need some strong muscle to help move the bookcase though. Wonder if S-I-L would like to come and help.???
I am still trying to keep busy, not think about Uncle at all if I can help it. I still think there might be something wrong with me. Although my very bright eldest daughter says not. I think maybe this time she could be wrong...
Back to planning... keep busy Julie, just keep busy...
Kisses
Julie
Day Forty Six - extra money in the bank
Today I'm grateful for:-
Today I'm grateful for the fact that I found extra money in my old bank account.
Lizzie and I spent today going to banks to sort out new/old accounts. I found I had an extra $300 (approx) in an old account. That will certainly come in handy, we have just about broken the bank over the last couple of weeks, what with the party, the bling that went with it (although apparently Hubby has been paying that off for a year or so) and then the flights, accommodation etc to Melbourne for 5 people, plus our part of the funeral, it has been difficult, financially as well. Not complaining, just stating a fact.
So I am grateful for any extra that comes our way right now. Remember what I said earlier this year... be grateful for the little things too.
Kisses
Julie
Today I'm grateful for the fact that I found extra money in my old bank account.
Lizzie and I spent today going to banks to sort out new/old accounts. I found I had an extra $300 (approx) in an old account. That will certainly come in handy, we have just about broken the bank over the last couple of weeks, what with the party, the bling that went with it (although apparently Hubby has been paying that off for a year or so) and then the flights, accommodation etc to Melbourne for 5 people, plus our part of the funeral, it has been difficult, financially as well. Not complaining, just stating a fact.
So I am grateful for any extra that comes our way right now. Remember what I said earlier this year... be grateful for the little things too.
Kisses
Julie
Day Forty Five - Sleep and Maccas
Today I'm Grateful for:-
Today I'm grateful for sleep and McDonalds.
After we came home yesterday, I had a quick drink and climbed into my lovely comfy bed and slept for the first time in a week.
I woke after a while and Jam went up the street and got Maccas for dinner. Not exactly healthy, but it was better than having to cook. I then went back to bed and didn't get up until about 10am the next day.
Kisses
Julie
Today I'm grateful for sleep and McDonalds.
After we came home yesterday, I had a quick drink and climbed into my lovely comfy bed and slept for the first time in a week.
I woke after a while and Jam went up the street and got Maccas for dinner. Not exactly healthy, but it was better than having to cook. I then went back to bed and didn't get up until about 10am the next day.
Kisses
Julie
Day Forty Four - Home! (still catching up, not much more)
Today I'm Grateful for::-
Today I'm grateful for going home.
It has been too hard. I just want to be home. In my own bed, where I can finally get some sleep.
I'm so glad to have a lovely home to be going to.
Kisses
Julie
Today I'm grateful for going home.
It has been too hard. I just want to be home. In my own bed, where I can finally get some sleep.
I'm so glad to have a lovely home to be going to.
Kisses
Julie
Day Forty Three - Friday - My kids
Today I'm Grateful for:-
Today I'm grateful for my girls and S-I-L being here.
The kids (growed ups) are here!!! I really missed my girls. I find incredible comfort in having them near me when I am so low.
Today is my favourite Uncle/Brother's funeral. One of my absolute favourite people in the universe is gone. He was my Uncle, my brother, my best friend and my terrible twin. We grew up together and spent our whole lives being there for each other. Always. When my Hubby was away with the Navy, Uncle was the one I would turn to if the washing machine broke down. You know the kind of thing. Even when we lived in separate states, we were still very much in each other's lives. As he got sicker, I was there to help him. My Hubby, (Uncle's best friend from the age of 14) was always there for Uncle too. We were the three musketeers. And today we have to say goodbye. It's too hard.
I am grateful that my Hubby, and my Girls are here with me, because for them I can be strong.
Hubby broke down and cried at the funeral today. Lizzie cried at the funeral today. S-I-L cried at the funeral today. Jam cried too.
I didn't cry.
Kisses
Julie
Today I'm grateful for my girls and S-I-L being here.
The kids (growed ups) are here!!! I really missed my girls. I find incredible comfort in having them near me when I am so low.
Today is my favourite Uncle/Brother's funeral. One of my absolute favourite people in the universe is gone. He was my Uncle, my brother, my best friend and my terrible twin. We grew up together and spent our whole lives being there for each other. Always. When my Hubby was away with the Navy, Uncle was the one I would turn to if the washing machine broke down. You know the kind of thing. Even when we lived in separate states, we were still very much in each other's lives. As he got sicker, I was there to help him. My Hubby, (Uncle's best friend from the age of 14) was always there for Uncle too. We were the three musketeers. And today we have to say goodbye. It's too hard.
I am grateful that my Hubby, and my Girls are here with me, because for them I can be strong.
Hubby broke down and cried at the funeral today. Lizzie cried at the funeral today. S-I-L cried at the funeral today. Jam cried too.
I didn't cry.
Kisses
Julie
Day Forty Two - Peace and Quiet (catch up)
Today I'm Grateful for:-
Today I'm grateful for Peace and Quiet.
Yesterday Poss and her Mum and my Hubby asked me to write a poem for Uncle for his funeral on Friday...tomorrow!! As you all know, it takes more than 24 hours to write a specialised poem for someone you love. If my Hubby wants it though, he will get it. However last night, I tried to get started (while the boys drank...lots) and really didn't get very far.
So today the fellas have told me to stay home (at the holiday home we are renting for the few days we are here) and work on the poem. I think they know that I am pretty close to cracking, and want to keep me busy. As I told ex wife Ann tonight, if I don't keep part of me separate, and business-like, I will shatter, and I don't think anyone wants that right now. I need to keep it together until after the funeral. At least.
And so today I am working on the poem.(btw, it will take me until 2am, working full on to get it done to any degree of passibility.)
So the house is quiet, except for Uncle's favourite music playing in the background, bringing back lots of memories from when we were growing up together, and all those many years together in between.
By 2am, the poem is finished, everyone is in bed. Time for bed.
Thanks for the quiet time guys, I appreciate it.
Kisses
Julie
Today I'm grateful for Peace and Quiet.
Yesterday Poss and her Mum and my Hubby asked me to write a poem for Uncle for his funeral on Friday...tomorrow!! As you all know, it takes more than 24 hours to write a specialised poem for someone you love. If my Hubby wants it though, he will get it. However last night, I tried to get started (while the boys drank...lots) and really didn't get very far.
So today the fellas have told me to stay home (at the holiday home we are renting for the few days we are here) and work on the poem. I think they know that I am pretty close to cracking, and want to keep me busy. As I told ex wife Ann tonight, if I don't keep part of me separate, and business-like, I will shatter, and I don't think anyone wants that right now. I need to keep it together until after the funeral. At least.
And so today I am working on the poem.(btw, it will take me until 2am, working full on to get it done to any degree of passibility.)
So the house is quiet, except for Uncle's favourite music playing in the background, bringing back lots of memories from when we were growing up together, and all those many years together in between.
By 2am, the poem is finished, everyone is in bed. Time for bed.
Thanks for the quiet time guys, I appreciate it.
Kisses
Julie
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