Day Eighty One - Me

Today I'm Grateful for Me.

Haha, just kidding, I'm not really grateful for me at all. And there's the problem.

You see I was talking to eldest daughter Lizzie today as you will see if you read her blog alittlebitoflotsofthings.blogspot.com - and had a mild epiphany.

Just a mild one... how exactly does one have a mild epiphany? Anyways, Lizzie and I were talking, and essentially, she was saying that my blog was interesting, but not really what she had in mind when she first suggested it. How so I ask? I was getting too 'involved' says she. How so? I ask once more... She thinks I may be trying too hard to be 'philosophical'. Oops says I... I do tend to ramble once I start writing, so perhaps she could be right. And it is certainly not all that blather that makes me more grateful. Then the epiphany happens.

I'M ALREADY GRATEFUL FOR EVERYTHING!!!!! (see, the capital letters and lots of exclamation points are to emphasise what I just said)

It is so true though. I really am one of the most grateful people out there. I am grateful for my daily food, I am grateful for the lovely home we live in, I am grateful for my family and my friends. I am grateful for the earth and every living thing on it. I am grateful for my faith, and other peoples faith, everything that is worth being grateful for, I'm grateful for it. Every single day.

So what is the point of doing this blog then, if not to find things to be grateful for? What is it that I need to learn from all of this?

Going philosophical again, just for a second or so. I need to ask myself one question. What is it that I am dissatisfied with? What would I change?

Answer. Me.

Elements of me anyway.

So the Lizzie suggested that perhaps I needed to take a minute or so to find something I like about myself. I figure it is going to take me a little longer than that. So here's the new plan. for the next seven days I am not going to find anything to be grateful for (or maybe I can do that too), but I am going to find something that I truly like about myself. I can't fake it, no saying something if I don't really believe it.

First one of seven. I like the fact that I am honest with everyone, even myself.

Kisses (oh, and good luck for the next few days, hehehe)

Julie