Day Thirty Four - Evaluations

Today I'm Grateful for:-

Today I'm grateful for being able to evaluate my progress... or lack of it. :)

It has been over a month since I started this blog now, and it is time I took a step back to see if it is coming together like it is supposed to. Have I accomplished anything, and if so, what. What measures am I taking to discover the positives in my life. Or am I just completely blowing sand up my own skirt and trying to make myself seem more important than I really am? Good questions, all of them. I particularly like the last one, as it seems very relevant somehow.

Ok, so have I accomplished anything. No. To be totally honest - (and what good would this blog be if I wasn't honest)- Nothing has changed. In fact I find I am doing less of what I was doing before I started this because I am trying to work out what I am going to say in this thing. Sometimes that is really difficult. Not that I am ungrateful for the things in my life, quite the opposite. I am grateful for so many things, but sometimes not in any deep and meaningful way. How to fix this? Um, can I get back to you on that?

Next question, what measures am I taking to discover the positives in my life. This one is a little easier, as I find that I am constantly searching for ways to increase the positives in life, and in fact to notice the positives that are already there, and that I may have overlooked. I find that I am searching through books, speaking to other people about what they are grateful for, doing basic research on the net, taking more note of what movies are around and the messages they have (if they are positive that is). I am taking notice of lots of different things actually, making notes, and this is of course taking time as well. So I am well on the way to answer this question.

Last but certainly not least, is; am I blowing sand up my own skirts in order to appear more important than I really am... Like I said, this is actually a good question. I know the original purpose of this blog was to create a positive way of appreciating what I have in my life. But along the way, I seem to have this need to give pieces of advice, to explain why I am grateful and for it to have a 'message' that is relevant to overall life in this day and age. I wonder if this is just part of being at my time in life... my kids are grown up and don't need me as much anymore, and so I guess sometimes I feel like I have had all these experiences and have wisdom that tends to go to waste. Please don't get me wrong, my kids are still coming to me for all kinds of things, and I still have that 'magic' touch when it comes to getting the advice right, but they are more often making their own decisions, and doing it better than me in some cases, lol. And that is the way it is supposed to be. I have done my job well, and now they are the ones that people go to for advice, and I am so glad of it. It is just occasionally, I feel left behind. It is also totally normal, and simply a transition period. This begs the question, is this blog just an excuse to be heard?

I had a cuppa while I mulled over the last question... and I believe the answer is no. Not really. I still believe that this blog is a way for me to make adjustments to my way of thinking. Ways for me to wake up to how life can be in the next phase of my life. How to be more positive about my age, my body and my health. Yes folks, it is "all about me". Meh, you know what I mean. About how I view the world and me within it.

Ok, so we have decided that I am probably not accomplishing very much, except getting the blog written, so I definitely have to work on that. Lists (my old friends), here we come again. Let's get the ball of productivity rolling again. I like the way I explain why I am grateful for things, so I will keep to that, maybe just make it a little more applicable. I will continue to find positives and ways to love my life in ways that are different and surprising.

All up, a good beginning to a year long project. Keep tuned people, we can only get better from here.

Kisses

Julie